Stressing over Nothing
I wonder if stress is a relative thing? I think about my problems and think they must be so minor in comparison to a homeless person or a tsunami victum. However, if there situation is 10 times worse then there stress must be 10 times worse. Anyway.
Over the week I had to deal with a minor quibble from online boards where a bunch of infighting occured after a player wasn't happy with a game. Seemed like a simple enough problem and I've handled these situations before. Amazing I seemed to have made things worse. However, I no longer blame myself. Internet communication is an amazing thing. I can write pointless things about my life and people will actually read it. And, while writing this I could be pissing someone off and make them hate me forever.
Personal communication is probably only 50% words. I'm no expert but you don't really need to be to figure that one out. In college I participated in an experment for psychology were I guy was testing internet communication. Me and some other guy had to type a one page essay on pornography and we could only communicate over the internet. I had a lot of fun with it tossing emoticons and joking. By the end he had no idea what pornography was (he thought he did) and was raving pissed while I had a delightful time with the project and though he did, too.
So, I've seen flamewars ignite and passions soar since I first started logging on in 1991. The recent events on the my internet boards show that some things never change. From the recent fight to a good friend leaving the boards.
To add to my nothing stress I ended up sitting next to Stephanie the other night while she went through he mail after being in Chicago for five days. This wasn't something I wanted to do* but she seemed comfortable with it and if she didn't want me to see anything she could have waited.
Of course she ended up pulling out mortgage statements and other financial information which made me realize that our financial situations are very different (well, I knew this, but this was a big reminder). This gets me going on reflecting on my financial situation which stable, is not great or secure for anything bad to happen to me physically or in the work place.
I now try and figure how to change that. Have been for awhile and am totally clueless when it comes down to these things. I love my job (doing the work I want, walk to work, no deadlines ex ex) but if I want to improve my future in any significant way things will have to change.
*There are certain things I want to remain ignorant of such as past boyfriends (Chasing Aimee Complex, or the whole how do I compare) and finances but realize I'll have to deal with these things if I want the relationship to work.
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Nope. Doesn't make much since, especially "anything you do in the immediate future really won't have much effect on the immediate future."
I'm sure I'll eventually figure it out.
Heh. I think what he's saying is that all financial things happen slowly. Saving $50 a month looks like nothing, but over a year or two, and that's a new computer. Or just money in the bank. Etc.
I shall now blab more about money. About money, to Money.
Money - I don't know what you do for lunch each day, but if you're buying subway or some shit, pull that "A Man, A Can, A Plan" book back out. It's already saved me serious money. Yeah, it's boring, but you can mix it up. I'm just too lazy to mix it up much.
On a totally unrelated note - I remember how you and Adam called each other "Bro". But everyone else called just Adam "Bro". You and I call each other "Money". But Tracy calls you "Money" and not me. When do I get my goddamn nickname? WHEN?!
I think the trick is more to figure out how to budget myself which I sort of do to where I can save $50 a month. The problem is when something wierd comes up like hosting, or car registration. I'm usually not ready for that and it plucks at any saving I might have.
As for lunch, I bring my lunch. $3 loaf of bread, $2.50 lunch meat, $2.50 cheese, maybe some lettuce and and mustard. This will easily last me all week.
As for "A Man, Can, Plan" book. Well, this only works if you are cooking for more then one or plan on eating whatever you cook a lot.
The things I made consisted of
Can of chicken $2
12 Corn Tortillas $3
Shredded Cheese $3
Salsa $3
Beans $2
I ate this once (didn't want to eat it again) and don't have a use for the extra ingrediants. That means by using the cookbook dinner cost me $13 and I can eat out for less then that.
Hmm. The chili lasts me about a week. YMMV, though.
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